Help me with my regret
When I was twelve I basically did sexual things to my brother in his sleep one night. Then for the next few months I had other sexually disturbed thoughts. I'm now 14 and for the last 20 months I've had strong regret of these times, particularly that one night even thought it lasted 5 minutes, if that. Even though the regret isn't as bad now it's still unbearable, it used to deprive me of sleep and I'd even considered suicide. I don't want people to abuse me, I just want advice please, thank you.
Also he has no idea about this and for his and my benefit I don't think I should tell him.