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Self Harm
I confess that until today, I have been clean. I haven't cut,burned, pulled my hair out, bruised myself, broken my bones just to feel the endorphin rush, bit myself, gouged myself with my fingernails or needled. Today, I wrecked six months of counseling and struggling with emotions because I broke up with my boyfriend. I further confess that I'm not sorry, I don't know why I ever quit.
I think the short-term rush is part of it, as is nerves and stress. While I never cut or burned myself (other than burning mosquito bites off my skin to get rid of them), I did used to pull the back of my hair, twisting it into knots first, then yanking it out. Woman who cut my hair would ask if I was doing it, and I'd say no.
Never broke a bone on purpose, either. Did, however, used to force my joints to crack until my fingers, knees, and ankles hurt. Also used to pull my own eyelashes out, sticking the pieces into a pen top. Would be so happy when it was full.
You'll get past this. Something in your life is causing it. When that's taken care of, all this will stop. I did for me, although I admit to a habit of pulling and tugging at my stache a lot, sometimes until it's so short it's a hitler stache.