I have dating phobia
If there is such a thing, I have it. I haven't had a girlfriend or been on a date in ten years. I know there's a lot wrong with me and I feel like I wouldn't be a good catch. I don't want to go thru all the troublesome steps of meeting and getting to know someone only to have her find out I'm not good enough for her and dump me. I have feelings and can't handle rejection well. I'm also kind of shy. I always have been. I was more shy in the past but I'm still a little. I don't know what to talk about on dates. I'm not good at small talk. I'd probably come across as boring. It hurts so much watching all my friends get married and have kids and move on. I'm alone as always, stuck behind. I lie to people telling them I'm happy being single and on my own but the truth is I'm miserable. I pray that there is someone out there who will accept me as I am and love me for who I am.