Lost in the past
Im absolutely terrified of my boyfriend. I cant look him in the face. I feel extremely uncomfortable when he holds my hand or puts his arm around ms. I like him a lot but because of past relationships i cannot trust guys who i date. At. All. I close off and shut down to them at that point.
I may be 16 but abusive relationships can happen at a young age. For me it was 14. He raped me almost ever single day. And i didnt do anything to stop it
But now that ive finally left him for good im still so scarred from him i dont know if i ever will really recover. Its ruining any relationship i have romantically. Im so scared right now. Even to the point where i had a panic attack earlier. I need help. Its killing me inside and i dont want to go back to my old ways of handling the pain.