I kind of hate my life right now. I am completely in love with a man who I don't even see anymore. No contact with him what so ever. I always feel sad and I always feel this longing in my heart. I feel like I am meant to be with him, but something always has to get in the way. The second I think "FINALLY, THIS IS GOING TO WORK OUT!", BAM! Something goes wrong again or things just do NOT work out. But something is always tugging at my heart. Pulling on it. A feeling that makes me want to cry every second of the day. But of course I don't cry, I don't show anyone my tears or sadness because I am supposed to be the strong one, the one that people always come to for advice. If I break down then they will have no one to go to. But deep down I'm crying for help, needing my own advice. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE! I'M GOING INSANE!