I binge and purge eveyday. Sometimes

I binge and purge eveyday. Sometimes twice a day. I'm worried Ill get throat cancer, Im worried if my sister knew she'd never speak to me again. I dont like living with her, she wont let me be myself. I dont want to need help or be sick. I want to be strong and stand for myself. I turn 20 this month, but I feel more immature than when I was 13. I'm so unhappy, but I dont think I could ever leave, I dont know where I would go. I want to be strong and healthy enough to be happy here. I have so much to be thankful for, but I keep making myself pick, and pertetuating new problems for myself. Im sacred that if I was healthy and happy, Id have to take responsability for my life, for all I havn't accomplished, for how beind I feel with everything, for how much I've hurt those I used to be closest to, for how much I've hurt myself.

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  • Damn, my generation is f*****..

  • If you're so worried then stop

  • I understand how you feel, but I think you already realise that you need to stop this and step up to adulthood, at least for your own life's sake. It sounds like you feel very out of control of your life, and this binging and purging is the only thing you feel like you can control. Everything you do has a consequence, and in this case, very, very serious ones. The only way to break the cycle is to gather all of your courage and face the mistakes you feel you've made, starting with the purging. Talk about it, get help - believe me, asking for help shows just how strong you are. I guarantee whatever you think you've done wrong can be fixed, but only if you don't wait until it's too late. You have too much ahead of you to live for to snuff out your life at such an early age.

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