Good girl Gone bad
I have a loving boyfriend who I know cares a lot about me. I Care about him too, but perhaps not as much as I used to. He is overly protective and tries too hard to control me. I have always been so good to him, never even kissed a single other person since we have been together (4 years) but he recently got angry about something so petty again and was writing me really hurtful messages out of rage. I happen to be out with another guy which is also a first, who went in to kiss me, I was hesitant at first and pulled back feeling guilty of my wrong doing. Then I lost it and began kissing him back and it was hot! In fact, so hot, I want to do it again. Problem is, I'm seeing my boyfriend this weekend and I feel bad stringing them both along. I don't know how to end things with bf because he's crazy and if he ever found out he would murder me. But I know I'm going to see this guy again and I secretly want to... pardon my language but ... F*k his brains out. What is wrong with me!?