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I'm Crazy
I've been in an relationship for over a year now. I love him, have been faithful, have done everything in rational confines to make sure we're happy. However, it seems the opposite for him. He's controlling; always has something to say about my choice in clothing, my group of friends, and even has gone as far as telling me he didn't want me working at a particular job because I might get "hit on". Well, to the point... I have heard constantly that he's cheating.... even found evidence myself. It never hinted at anything sexual, but always inappropriate on his part. Tonight he busted through my bathroom door, and broke the biggest hole that I've ever seen in it, just because I confronted him about something that had came it. He claims all of the allegations are because people don't want to see us together, but I doubt it. However, being a science buff, i can't allow myself to leave him without direct, doubtless evidence. Am i crazy?
Becca is so crazy. hose up ** and fat and aggressive face ugly but hot in ** and bed bouncing, ** and fighting for scruff fluck. Thats when she got the hose and pulled over the picnic table. At first I just told her I'll take off my boots and go to the shower but wow am I glad I didn't. Then she just said to take off my clothes telling me I won't regret it, and I sure didn't.
She first squirted me down with the hose and had me lay down on the picnic table where she just began soaping up my body washing me head to foot. Then she took the hose on a fine spray and rinsed me off paying special attention to my ** and ** crack. By then I had a full ** and thought it was over. She had me bend up my knees and pushed my legs wide open soaping up my ** and began giving me a ** and using a fine spay on my testicles and **. Its hard to explain the sensations just by the way she jerked me off and kept spraying the water up and down from my ** to my **. I only regret that I ** to soon. Thankfully I get the same wash down every Friday since. Aside from the ** I have with her I can never remember having such a sensual **. She plays with me other times and is more than willing to give me oral ** anytime I want. So for now at least I AM her boyfriend.
DATING REBECCA
I met her in a bar about 4 months ago and she almost immediately considered me her boyfriend. She isn't what I would call beautiful, a little plump and a little to aggressive. I originally took her back to my cabin figuring she was a sure piece of **. After work on Fridays I drive straight to my cabin and come back home sometime Sunday. Its in a rural area and I bought it 8 years ago since its close to the creek and I'm an avid fisherman. After the first time I saw her every weekend and the ** is great with her. Then back at the end of May is when she began being at my cabin when I arrived usually by 6pm depending on traffic. I'm a laborer for a construction company and when I leave work I'm usually sweaty and filthy dirty and shower when I get to the cabin.
Remember I said she was aggressive. It was the 2nd Friday she was waiting for me and I was in mud that day at work. It was hot out maybe high 80's I pulled up in the back and Becca was sitting on the deck. As soon as I got out of my truck she said "your not going inside like that?". She went in and came out with a bar of soap, shampoo and a towel telling me to get undressed. Thats when she got the hose and pulled over the picnic table. At first I just told her I'll take off my boots and go to the shower but wow am I glad I didn't. Then she just said to take off my clothes telling me I won't regret it, and I sure didn't.
You need leave him,before his behaviour escalates,into physical violence towards you!! I've witnessed directly and studied this particular behavioural pattern! I've seen these signs before and don't want you,
to experience the results.He's already verbally abusing you,by being controlling and telling you,"what to do" and "not what,to do" leave him now,or remain and suffer!!
Speaking as a guy that has never cheated but had delt with other addictions, when guys feel guilty about something we will try to find faults in you so we can get angry at you because if we are mad at you then it makes us feel better about our own guilt.
IE, instead of telling ourselves we cheated on you because we don't have self control or have some other issues, it is easier to say "she's such an untrusting b**** she drives me away from her, it's not my fault!"
Of course that's not true, he is responsible for his own actions. I dont know what exactly he is doing, but his actions as you describe them would be a huge red flag to me. With that much smoke I would expect to find a fire somewhere. Even If it turns out he is not cheating, it is still not right for him to treat you this way. It take both people to make this work, no matter how nice you are and how much you help him it won't be enough if he can't step up also. Deal with this now, it will only be harder and more painful later
You are not crazy, just in love. But love does not conquer all! He is trying to make a fool out of you. If people are saying it, you've actually found some type of evidence and he's constantly accusing and trying to control you... That should be enough to go! Married or dating no one should treat you that way. You deserve better. The fact that you posted this shows you have doubts and you should go with your gut...
You should cheat too.