Theres a guy i see 2-3 times a week. he pays my rent and utlities and i give him things his wife doesnt give him and make him happy. i know its wrong but he really loves me. i tell him i love him but i dont actually love him its just convenient. i didnt feel guilty for 2 whole years of it but now he started talking about leaving his wife and kids and starting a family with me and i dont want that so i tell him to stay with her until the kids are grownup and then we can be together. but i dont mean that either. i have a boyfriend and its him i want to be with in reality but he will probably never leave his wife because she has money. i feel bad but i dont know what to do to change it and make it best for me.