So I met a guy online, and we're both gay. We live far away from each other, and neither of us had any intention of falling for each other, but we did. I wanted him so badly and he wanted me, but when we decided to sit down and talk about it, he said that it couldn't work out.
So, like the mess-up I am, I tested our relationship by telling him that I didn't want to talk to him for awhile and he got mad at me. I messed up and lost his trust, but we started fixing things again.
I thought I was going to be okay with it, despite the hurt, but he found someone else and I can't stand to even think about it. He said we didn't have to be different, but we are, and he's been mad at me for lots of things and I don't even know why.
He told me that he only told me his problems and he was only vulnerable to me because I was vulnerable to him. He said he wanted to tell me personal things about him ONLY BECAUSE I was telling him so much about me. :(
I told him I was over him, but in the end I still want him. My heart aches every time I think about him and his new guy.