No More Love

There is no more love in my heart.

I dont feel anything anymore.

I am suicidal but I dont think Im courageous enough to end my life.

I am different towards everyone's suffering AND my own.

Pain, dissapointment and betrayal is part of mylife Im so used to it that when someone hurts me I just move along. I feel pain but there's nothing I can do.
Things like that happen to people like me - someone who was borne in a cursed family.

Thats right, I must be cursed because i dont remember the last time I was happy.

I want to be happy but its just a fleeting emotion its not even worth a try.

I want to leave my family. I dont care how and when Im just waiting for the right time. Im going to leave and start a new life. Been thinking about it for many years but this time Im seriously gonna do it.

There's only so much on mental abuse I can endure.

Report this

9 Comments

  • newest
  • oldest
  • most replies
  • most popular
  • Life is a rollercoaster. It has its ups and downs.
    You'll just have to go along with the ride, my friend. See where it leads you.

  • The ride should lead you, not you leading the ride into you trying to kill yourself.
    You've got so much to live for its unbelievable! You're here on earth for a reason! Think of all the people who will genuinely miss you.
    And those experiences you face only make you stronger.

    Starting a new life doesn't solve anything, that's just a way out. A way of escaping.
    Face your problems. It may seem dull and depressing but it does get better over time.
    I was once depressed...so I know how you feel. My brother died…yep.
    But if I can get through it, why can't you? Life is not always going to be rosy; you'll have down days too. Everyone does.

    TALK your problems out with someone.
    Like a close friend or family member.
    If you would rather not, go see a counsellor.
    There are heaps of people who could help you if you let them!
    Just let it out, express it. It doesn't make you weak expressing how you feel if that's what you're afraid of. It helps to get it out rather than just letting your emotions build up inside of you because God only knows what you will be capable of when you explode.

  • Life is a struggle; a battle. There are people, situations and places that act as volatile weapons against us, wounding us beyond repair - both mentally and physically.

    The darkness and frustration is alluring. It wraps around our hearts, constricting our lives, squeezing every drop of life out of us.

    That said, once past the battlefield, there is a world filled with hope. There is a radiating warmth and comfort, ready to consume us in its unwavering optimism.

    Life is difficult, but please know there is always more. Beyond the sadness, the seemingly endless loneliness, there is a fire. A light that shines deep within you. Nurture it.

    With the proper help, and hopefulness, there is a different life waiting for you. A happier world.

    You can make it out of the battle.

    I have.

  • Been there! Still am lots of the time. Here's a good theme song until the dull misery passes: Iris DeMent's "Easy's Getting Harder Every Day" It does pass - try doing the opposite of what you usually do each day. It might not be better but at least it cuts down on the boredom.

  • find a good faith..
    in my opinion it's Islam..
    and u never will be sad again

  • At times, I feel like this. When I wake up in the morning, I just feel like it's just another beginning of another same old day with no new emotions.
    I really can't remember the last time I was happy and when I try, it's like watching an old video in which I do not recognize the people in it.
    I'm tired of being like this, of putting on a happy face for friends and family and not being able to find someone who understands me.
    Just like you, I want to go away, for a while, for a long time, I don't really know, I just want a break from it all.

  • God bless you. Meditate on The Lord Is My Shepherd. Let God's word bless your life.

  • I really can help you if you want and I really feel sorry for you too. If you want help just leave a comment here. God be with you..!!

  • Seek help asap. even free online. pls seek help. http://www.samaritans.org/talk_to_someone.aspx i did once and glad i did... prayers to you.

Account Login
Signup
Is this post inapropriate?
Is this comment inapropriate?
Delete this post?