Good Enough

My life has become my favorite song...
"Good Enough" by Evanescence.

That sounds like I'm being dramatic, but I really looked into it and compared the lyrics to everything.
This is what happened to me...

My boyfriend of 9 months left me for another girl he said he was in love with. This was the boy I had my future planned out with.
I really thought that there was no hope of being with him in any way ever again.

""Under your spell again...I can't say no to you.""
Then 2 months later I found him alone in the forest.
(We were camping at the place we met...)
We were just talking and catching up when suddenly he was grabbing my legs and kissing me...this later led to s**.
""Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand""
Which of course opened the healing wound his breakup left me with.

""Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...""
I feel like I have him back in a way, even though he still has a girlfriend. He's still dating the girl he said he doesn't love me enough to not leave for...
""Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.""

""Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.""
I really shouldn't let this happen! I met his girlfriend yet I'm still letting this happen. I used to be sweet and nice to everyone, but I want this and I can't help but fight for it.
""Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...""

It's been 3 months and it's still going on...
""Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.""

It seems so strange, like all of this is out of one of my crazy fantasies. It feels so good, but it's like I've been dreaming all of this up.
""And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.""

He said it when we broke up...he just doesn't love me anymore. It's not enough... and I'm so afraid that this s** affair will end soon, because it's all I have to hold on to.
""'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?""

""So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.""

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  • I agree with the previous comment, this guy's not treating you or his current very well at all. If he loves this girl, then why is he cheating on her? With someone he's very clear on not loving?
    Seems odd that youd have feelings for a man who clearly has very little heart, if any, to fill with anything as sincere as real love.
    As for the song, yes, its a good song, and a lot of the time a lot of us can associate with songs on an eerie level... but thats probably not a good idea, because you then end up assuming that your life will continue to be dictated by this song... and a song is only about 4 minutes long... lifes a lot longer, and a lot more complex.
    Find a new song. Better yet, write your own!

  • Well if you let go of "all you have" maybe you will be able to grab onto something better with someone who does love and appreciate you. I know it's scary and lonely, and sad in between, that's where I am now but hoping to meet a nice lady.

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