I legit hate myself with a passion. I really do. I can't even describe all the feelings I have towards myself, I guess to sum it up all the bad feelings and animosity I have built up inside, is totally because of me, and towards me. I love someone more than anything in the world, and I can't make them happy and it makes me feel like the biggest piece of s*** in the world. I want to be the person he spends the rest of his life with but I feel like I can't ever do anything right to achieve that. It has nothing to do with him, it's definitely me. I hate myself for it. But for more than just that. I can't even do anything for myself, and now I'm so depressed it's become crippling. I can't vent this to anyone because if I do, I'm told I'm a crybaby or to 'do something about it'. Yeah, obviously if it were THAT simple I would have, because no one likes f****** feeling this way. I thought that might be obvious. I used to be happy, and inspired, and look forward to things but now I just wonder if I'll ever have the guts to just off myself because I'm that miserable and people in my life would be better off that way. I can't even talk about it anymore. There's really nothing else to say, because I said it.


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  • Please do not do anything that involves harming yourself! Try to become optimistic. You still have an entire life ahead of you. And as far as I see, when you're an adult nobody criticizes you for acting like a bad person. I think you should talk to a specific person about your feelings (if you haven't already). The fact that you posted your feelings on this website shows that you've already taken the first steps to recovering from your depression. That specific person is the one you love. If you have a close enough relationship with him/her, then talk to him/her about it. Tell him/her that you want him/her to be happy more than anything in the world. Just please, talk to someone about your feelings because clearly, you need someone who will sit down and listen to everything you have to say.

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  • OMG is your name breanna?!?! Please tell me!

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