I am in love with my best friend. She is the most incredible person on the planet. And I had a chance to be with her, and it was good. But then I messed it up. We are still best friends and I have to try and convince her daily that I am not in love with her in that way. It is the hardest thing in the world to do. Especially when she brings guys around and wants me to like them. She needs me to like them for it to go anywhere, and I can never feel like I honestly dislike them without it being my own jealousy.
I hate this. I am a grown adult who feels like a stupid high schooler.