What should I do? Met a girl this summer.?

Okay this is a pretty long story but I'd really like some help with this.

To start I'll need to go back to when I was in the 3rd grade, there was this girl who I thought was the cutest and smartest girl I had ever met but I was always too scared to tell her I liked her and on top of that my best friend at the time liked her and I didn't want to ruin our friendship. On the last day of the 3rd grade she came up to me and told me she liked me, I was speechless, my best friend was standing next to me at the time and ran off and he has never spoken to me since. I soon left the school and never thought I would see her again.

Fast forward 10 years and I was going through videos on youtube and saw a Moomins video then I remember she always carried a "Moomin" backpack (The Moomins were a childrens cartoon) and suddenly I had the urge to find her on facebook. I added her on facebook shortly after and asked if she remembered me but she just had a very scarce memory at the time, I was alittle disappointed but I asked her where she lived and it turned out she lived only a few Km away from me so I immediately asked her if she would like to get some lunch and she said she would like to.
So I walked to a place between her place and mine at first I thought she wouldn't show up as the place was empty but then I saw her and she completely took my breath. As I walked with her to go get lunch we talked about everything and she told me she was hoping to leave for University in Norway sometime after the summer, I tried to not get too attached to her and after taking her to lunch I walked her home and she gave me a kiss on the cheek.
During lunch we talked about everything and agreed that it would be fun to go for a really long bike ride to a nearby town. We set off early in the morning and as we got to the town she told me that she will never forget this bike ride and it made me really happy that she would remember me this way. Immediately I had to ask her out again, she mentioned there was a new sushi restaurant that opened up and she wanted to try so I asked her if you should like to go and she said she would love to go with me. We had a great dinner and I walked her all the way home and again she gave me a kiss on the cheek. At this point all I could think about was her and once again I asked her if she would like to do something like watch a movie and she said she would love to. I'm still studying for my driving license at the moment so her dad drove us to the cinema so the car ride was completely silent but I was trying to muster the courage to tell her how I feel about her.
After watching the movie and having dinner together I thought we would catch a bus ride but I didn't know any of the bus schedules so she ended up calling her dad and they dropped me off at my house and I could say how I felt to her alone..
Later that same night I couldn't help it so I wrote to her everything and the way I feel about her on facebook (I know kinda lame)...However she told me she wasn't looking to start anything because she was still in a transition period cause she was going to leave for uni in less than 2 months and she didn't want to get attached to me. It was painful for me but I accepted it.
I kept trying to ask her to hangout but she always told she was busy but it felt to me she wanted to avoid me. She was going to leave for Sweden for 2 weeks so I thought then would be the best chance to try and move on from her.
So forward again to a few days ago, I tried to forget her, I don't look to see if she sent me any messages and I don't go on her facebook wall but I still end up thinking about her. So I decided I should go visit one of my best friends who is going to university in the UK to study and try and clear my head and literally 10 minutes after I planned to go see him and hang out with him in the UK, I see on my newfeed on facebook that she had got a place in a University. The University she got a place in was the same university my best friend is going to study at and on top of that she will be taking the exact same course as him. I couldn't believe it, I felt like she jumped right back into my life after 2 weeks of trying to forget her and once again all my feelings for her resurfaced and now I don't think I'll be able to go see my best friend without getting the urge to see her.

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