I told her I was drunk but I wasn't

I was over at my best friend's house and we were drinking when her parents were out of town. Even though we never dated we were very affectionate with each other. I was already planning on sleeping over in a platonic way and when we got in bed together (we often slept innocently in the same bed) she got on top of me and started kissing me. She took of her pants and shirt. I stared up at her in her bra and she looked so beautiful but I knew it could mean the end of our friendship if we went further. When she leaned back down to kiss me I didn't kiss her back. She asked what was wrong and I told her I was drunk even though I wasn't and that we would regret it if we did anything. It was the hardest thing I had ever done. I loved her and valued our friendship so much and knew that It would get weird if we did it. We never talked about what happened. It was as if it was just a dream. Since then we have both gotten married and lost touch. I regret stopping her so much now, sometimes I feel like it was the biggest mistake of my life.

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  • It's not that I'm unhappy with my life right now and I wouldn't want to do anything today. I just wish that I had the experience back then because in hindsight there was no reason not to do it and I know it would have been great.

  • She need help AA meetings okay, fine you a job rent or buy a older house, maybe you too can have a child together, there you go, let us know how you two are doing.

  • I'm sorry, sometimes we make a mistake in judgment, but you're married now, she married to, let go of your feelings for her, be happy with your wife now,

  • Ask yourself this, do you regret it because you're unhappy with your life? Not happy with your job, marriage, the occassional boredom of being a husband/father? The reality of what getting older means?

    It may just be that what you miss is a different time in your life and changing that one thing, would make it all better.

    I would think honestly about how happy you are in the present. What's done is done. Longing for it what make what is going in now any better if that is really what your problem is.

    I used to think about an old GF a lot. Then, it hit me that she as simply a metaphor for a different time when I was happier. It wasn't her I was thinking about, but the escape from what wasn't making me happy in my life now.

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