It felt so good
I don't know what other category to put this in, so I put it in the venting one.
Anyways, every other year of my life, I was this goody who never broke the rules. I always thought that flirts were weird, and I was so inexperienced with guys that it wasn't even funny. Considering my Chrisian upbringing, this was the good thing, right? I thought s** before marriage was terrible, that talking to guys about s** was bad, masturbating was your one way ticket to h***, etc. I never cussed either. Now, I'm pretty careless and rebellious. I don't want to have s** yet, because I'm only 14, but I don't think it's so bad. I've masturbated too. I'm more experienced with guys. I cuss a lot. It may not matter to some of you, but it's more fun living this way. I love the new me a lot more.
Last night, at a dance, I grinded with two guys, for the first time in my life. I was so turned on and everything, especially the physical attraction and the craving to grind all the time. I just loved the way they held my hips. I used to think that grinding would make me feel ashamed and that I would be a w****. And now, I can say that it was one of the best things ever. And I've never felt so free.