i've been dating my boyfriend for 4
i've been dating my boyfriend for 4 years, and i love him. we're planning on marrying in a couple of years. in high school, about 7 years ago, i slept with this guy twice, but have been keeping in touch with him ever since. there's always been a strange attraction and connection between us, but we never got together because we were in different places. now, we live closer, and i've started to wonder if i made the right choice. we've started planning a "get together". i'm worried because i really don't feel as guilty as i should. i'm not sure what his feelings are towards me or my feelings toward him. i'm not even sure of my feelings for my boyfriend anymore.
i really do love my boyfriend, but i'm not sure if i'm in love with him or just love him because he was there. it's hard because my family is absolutely in love with him, so if i do have feelings for this other guy, they would hate me.