Account Login
Demon
I have secretly ruined the lives of pretty much everyone in my entire life. I have spat on every opportunity I've been blessed with, and laughed when I got away, and now I lay here sleepless stuck in my web so thick, I almost literally can't breathe... I don't know how I will ever forgive myself. I just wish he knew how sorry I really am, and I wish I could take it all back. Suicide is the only, ONLY way I feel I can "make it up" to them. Instead of insulting them more and more every day, I'm starting to really... get dangerous.. I hate myself.
You have a conscience and you feel empathy and regret. Those are positive qualities you have. I understand that right now you feel pretty hopeless. Your feelings are real and important, but they're not forever and not a measure of your worth. Please check yourself into a hospital and get help. You are absolutely worth it, and you deserve to live.
I am so sorry you are hurting. Listen, before you hurt yourself and everyone even more by acting impulsively, maybe you should check yourself into the hospital. Maybe you and your mind need a break from it all just for a little while.