I am so lonely
I am so tired of watching everyone else find someone. Get married, have children. Buy homes. Move ahead with their lives. All while I sit back and watch. I'm not blaming anyone but myself. I just want someone to love me so badly. I want to find someone special. It's been so long since someone held me and told me they loved me. Sometimes I think I'm just meant to be alone. I mean God made me the way I am. I have no one. It's so hard to find someone. I don't know why anyone would want to be with me anyway unless there was something wrong with them. I have nothing to offer. Yeah I am a nice person but that's not much. There's so many materialistic people out there. I am so lost. I go through life and feel like I'm just waiting for it to be over. I'm tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of the emptiness inside me. It consumes me. My life is so meaningless. Why can't I just be normal? I don't even ask to be rich or incredibly handsome or anything. I just want to be normal. I'm not even that. I'm the bottom of the barrel. I hate myself.