I got the punishment, i figured I'd do the crime

My marriage year #21......
During an extremely stressful time having many losses in a very short time. I was not sleeping. The Dr gave me sleeping pills. I was on them for 2 weeks and feeling any more rested but I was sleeping......so I thought. Turned out my hub was talking to me most of these nights. He had s** with me which I don't remember. I said lots of off the wall stuff and I do remember seeing my hub turn into a alien. For 2 weeks he let me think I was sleeping nights until the alien incident. He pulled out a notebook and started yelling at me asking me about guys I had told him about while I was "sleeping". I had told him I cheated with 5 guys. Which I had NEVER cheated. For another 2 weeks he questioned and yelled at me. I had had enough one night and finally screamed out I did I f***** them all and sometimes 2 at a time. The next 3 hours was h*** I thought he was going to kill me. He beat my head into everything he could threw me around, chocked me. I was covered in bruises and so sore for a month. We separated for awhile. We talked and one night I went home we ended up having s**. I left a month later I found out I was pg. We tried for 17 years to have a baby, it was a happy but sad time. I decided to stay with him. I mad it clear if he ever touched me again I was done. We been married 26 years now and that fight was 5 yrs ago.
Thing is I don't love him like I use to. I hate what he did to me, I don't trust him. I started cheating on him shortly after our child was born. I'd never been with anyone else. I've made up for it. I'm not even sure how many guys I I've slept with. I've had one night stands, fwb and a few relationships. Really hot guys ones I never knew I could get. Most are 10-15yrs younger. I think I'm in love with one I've been seeing for 6 months. I want him to steal me away and punch my hub in the face.

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  • I enjoy f****** married women...I have f***** hundreds of them but never made any pregnant ,unfortunately. I work in mental health,medications can make people hallucinate and see things.Its unfortunate he took advantage of you during a weak point and time in your life,instead of being caring and supportive.I am glad you made it through the beating and was blessed with the baby.Having someone steal you from him is not good for the baby either.Most kids tend to act-up when a biological parent is not in their lives and the baby needs both parents.If he has not beat u up in 5 years,maybe he is good for you...I don't know,you know him better.Hope u work it out with him.
    F*** whatever you can but be careful..sounds like life is good!

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