I got the punishment, i figured I'd do the crime
My marriage year #21......
During an extremely stressful time having many losses in a very short time. I was not sleeping. The Dr gave me sleeping pills. I was on them for 2 weeks and feeling any more rested but I was sleeping......so I thought. Turned out my hub was talking to me most of these nights. He had s** with me which I don't remember. I said lots of off the wall stuff and I do remember seeing my hub turn into a alien. For 2 weeks he let me think I was sleeping nights until the alien incident. He pulled out a notebook and started yelling at me asking me about guys I had told him about while I was "sleeping". I had told him I cheated with 5 guys. Which I had NEVER cheated. For another 2 weeks he questioned and yelled at me. I had had enough one night and finally screamed out I did I f***** them all and sometimes 2 at a time. The next 3 hours was h*** I thought he was going to kill me. He beat my head into everything he could threw me around, chocked me. I was covered in bruises and so sore for a month. We separated for awhile. We talked and one night I went home we ended up having s**. I left a month later I found out I was pg. We tried for 17 years to have a baby, it was a happy but sad time. I decided to stay with him. I mad it clear if he ever touched me again I was done. We been married 26 years now and that fight was 5 yrs ago.
Thing is I don't love him like I use to. I hate what he did to me, I don't trust him. I started cheating on him shortly after our child was born. I'd never been with anyone else. I've made up for it. I'm not even sure how many guys I I've slept with. I've had one night stands, fwb and a few relationships. Really hot guys ones I never knew I could get. Most are 10-15yrs younger. I think I'm in love with one I've been seeing for 6 months. I want him to steal me away and punch my hub in the face.