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verrrry confused......
ok so a couple fridays ago i met some buddies for drinks after work and while i was there i met this tall brunette. i was straight upfront and told her i was married and had kids but she said no prob and we drank and talked and danced for a couple hours. she invited me back to her place and i admitted i hadnt ever cheated before but she said she was clean and discreet and we would go slow. we went to her apt. and got in bed and kissed and laid together in the dark before i started taking off her clothes and when i did i realized that she was a t-girl. i should of bolted right there but she was so cool and it felt so good to be with her that i stayed and we talked and then we massaged each other and eventually had full **. ive never felt so good in my life. everything she did was magic and everything she did was soooo right. now i cant think about anything but her. i dont think i am gay but i want this t-girl more than i have ever wanted anything and i am even thinking about leaving my family for her. she is amazing and i want to be with her but it makes me feel so confused about my sexuality and my family. i just want her more than anything ever and i could not possibly give her up. i think i love her. i really do.
You could be right that its only ** and not love but the feeling i have is so much stronger than I ever had before about any woman including my wife and it is all-consuming to me. i have to say you defenately are totally right about several other things you said (almost scary). lexi is totaly still intact and her '**' (what she calls it) isn't very thick but it is loooong and really beautiful and delicious and i cant get enough. another thing that you got right somehow (which is amazing) is that she has several other partners. she has a married boyfriend who takes care of her so i can only see her when she isn't with him. he is her main relationship for almost 3 years. she sees other men when she doesn't have a date with him which is what happened with me that night. but since we met she has only gone with men other than him when i cant see her and she says she will end all those relationships if i decide to leave my family though she doesn't pressure me for that. as for protection we talked about that for a long time the first night and since i was a t-girl virgin she let me decide whether to use it but she told me that it would feel so much more intimate and pure "without anything between us" and since we had already gone so far by that time i said i wanted to feel her completely no matter who was inside who so we didn't use it. she asked me the second night and i said i didn't ever want anything between us. i haven't had ** with my wife since lexi and i met and i wont until i decide what to do so she isn't in danger of catching anything. lexi swears shes clean and gets tests all the time and i trust her completely. lastly i think that divorce is probably what will happen but i still have that doubt about what you first said, ** versus love, and about me being gay without realizing it since i think of lexi as a real true pure woman and nothing else. i want her so bad that i think this must be love. thanks for sharing your thoughts.
Chances are Lexi likes her situation. She has no reason to leave her arrangements, even for you. Unless you have a lot of $$, she will still always have other suitors on the side. She will tell you she's clean..and just because she's clean, doesn't mean you shouldn't get tested as well. It's not a matter of if, it's when. It's not really rocket science to figure out that Lexi is out partying and most likely sleeping with a lot of men. Take away the make up and the breast implants, she is a man. And as a man, you guys are dogs. C'mon..fess up. Your whole mission in life to sleep with as many people as you can. And yea, you are having gay **, because Lexi's anatomy is still that of a man. There is nothing wrong with being gay. And there's nothing wrong with Lexi, living her life as a woman. But again, don't confuse ** with love. You can't trust her completely..but you really don't know her. And P.S. Hep C will kill you quicker then HIV/AIDS. Not sure how long you can avoid not having ** with your wife, but you're going to have to make this decision sooner than later. And you may want to prepare yourself for the outcome that you could find yourself alone.