In the past
I'm recently married to a man, and lets just say he's my kind of perfect. Before him all my relationships were hardcore bdsm and bondage etc. Aside from beingbisexual he's as straight and vanilla as they come. He knows a little of my past. The basics. What he doesn't know is how hard it was for meto make that change for him. The kind of cravings and thoughts I have when I have time a lone and just how much I miss it sometimes. I'm too scared to tell him and ask for help, a lot of what I did is just not considered "normal" probably even by the p*** industry. I just feel so lost and confused.