Harassment at work
Every job I have held, there is always at least one person who bullies me mercilessly. I've always been abused, by classmates, by my family, and now as an adult by managers. It's ALWAYS a manager or someone above me, never just a coworker that I can ignore. And at my current job there are THREE of them. It must be something about me that draws certain types of personalities to victimize me. I must be a good ready-made victim. I need to learn how to stand up for myself. It's impossible to do what I want to do, simply file a complaint or grievance. I've tried. The higher ups don't give a f*** at all, and usually me making a stink about a problem results in punishment for ME, not the other person. I could just go higher and higher up the corporate ladder complaining until someone listened to me, but I have a strong feeling that if I made too many waves I'd conveniently get fired for "insubordination" meaning they just wanted to get rid of me. Job searching is nerve-wracking because I can't help thinking at every new workplace... who's it gonna be this time? Who's gonna pick on me and humiliate me and make my work life h*** yet again? It's always someone... and I'm never able to stand up for myself because I'm just an entry-level worker, easily replaced if I rock the boat too much.