I fantasize about having s** with my boyfriends best friend. I have been friends with him longer than my boyfriend, and we have historically had crushes on eachother over time. regardless, my boyfriend is my boyfriend for a reason and I love him, so I don't want to hear anything about me cheating, cause I won't. after a particular night out with my boyfriend, his best friend and some other friends I couldn't stop picturing kissing his best friend...
him and I always make lingering eye contact. I am sometimes so turned on by him because I know he secretly wants me but can't have me. I see him check me out but otherwise he is insanely respectful of our relationship. what I can't get over is the fact that he once told me he loved me after a drunken night of the friend group going out, and after quietly admitting it to me immediately left the bar like as though he was mortified. even though I'm not going to do anything about it I can't ignore the fact that I always imagine that if he finally got his hands on me he would literally f*** me so good and so passionately. like he would do it like the world was ending.
it really is such a pain because he is really juicy and so is my boyfriend. when I see them hanging out sometimes I just wish they would both f*** me together.