Felt the guilt
After some unspoken seductive methods of massages an Asian woman which isa massager, told me if I wanted to "let the hormones go" for a price, I gave her the price and she gave me an incredible handjob which I've been fantasising for years, I'm a young guy and I found that opportunity pretty charming at first, but when I finished I felt a huge guilt, probably because I disappointed my mum when she told me not to do anything wrong, maybe it's something religious, or maybe it's because of the money, but it's certainly because of my fallen pride? I've been feeling very down, hated every female around and I just became soulless. What has gone into me? And how can I cure it?