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I deserve to die
So, I was maybe 10 or 11, and I feel horrible. I feel evil and disgusting, but one night, a cousin of mine was sleeping over, and I don’t know why I did it, I knew it was wrong, but I touched her while she was sleeping… she was maybe 7 or 8. I feel like a child molester and it has been almost 6 years. I feel like I deserve to die.
Agreed with the other comments. Forgive yourself, you were just a kid and didn't really know what you were doing, and she was asleep and will never be hurt by it. Just remember the pain you ended up causing yourself, so you don't feel tempted to ever do it again.
Let it go and move on. Kids are curious, it happens. I touched my brother when we were both kids (I'm female). I don't think he remembers, he was pretty young and didn't know what was going on. He just thought it was another way to play. I'm in my 30s now and we have a good relationship, brother/sister only, nothing sexual or weird. I understand that you feel bad, but you aren't a child molester, you were a kid.
I did the same thing. Don't worry about it dude. You were just a stupid kid. Live your life, it is almost over.