I am in a 15 month relationship and about 6 months ago and three months ago I flirted with another guy (no pictures and no physical contact) but just cute and flirty messages. It all started when my boyfriend got a third shift job and things between us started going down hill, so I turned to an old friend in England who I've known for 3 years now, he helped me through a lot and he started to give me compliments and help me then it turned into flirting and liking eachother. My boyfriend found out and was furious, I love my boyfriend but yet this guy from England keeps popping up in my dreams and my head sometimes and I can't control it. I am lost right now, I am only 18 and this is my first love but I know my boyfriend and he's special. I am not sure what's the thoughts about me with the guy from England but I don't know what to do or how to handle things. My moms advice is to let things happen and see how they work out. But I don't even know if this guy will even talk to me as a friend anymore and if I message him while dating my boyfriend and he finds out he will be furious and break up with me. Please someone comment and help me! I am a lost girl and don't know what to do!