Rage I want to get rid of
Ever since I can remember, I've been putting my life on hold to take care of those around me. I didn't even get a childhood of my own because instead I've been looking after my 2 half younger brothers since I was 12. I'm 18 now, and can't act like everything is okay anymore. My stepfather is such a shtty, f****** lazy excuse of a dad and his kids are paying for it. It p***** me off that he's setting them up for a bad life by barely paying attention to them and only acknowledging them when he wants a favor. I see no comfort, affection, or fatherly advice and it's so frustrating that he tries so hard to be the man of the house when he isn't at all. I've always gotten a bad vibe from him, and it's growing even more now, sometimes I wonder if maybe he did something to me when I was younger. I can't keep lying to myself though and say I don't feel some type of hatred and resentment for him... I want to get rid of this rage but I don't know what to do. I have to be there for my family but I need to do something for myself because being stuck here is driving me crazy. I've been suppressing those so long I can't even explain it correctly... What's a girl to do?