Rage I want to get rid of

Ever since I can remember, I've been putting my life on hold to take care of those around me. I didn't even get a childhood of my own because instead I've been looking after my 2 half younger brothers since I was 12. I'm 18 now, and can't act like everything is okay anymore. My stepfather is such a shtty, f****** lazy excuse of a dad and his kids are paying for it. It p***** me off that he's setting them up for a bad life by barely paying attention to them and only acknowledging them when he wants a favor. I see no comfort, affection, or fatherly advice and it's so frustrating that he tries so hard to be the man of the house when he isn't at all. I've always gotten a bad vibe from him, and it's growing even more now, sometimes I wonder if maybe he did something to me when I was younger. I can't keep lying to myself though and say I don't feel some type of hatred and resentment for him... I want to get rid of this rage but I don't know what to do. I have to be there for my family but I need to do something for myself because being stuck here is driving me crazy. I've been suppressing those so long I can't even explain it correctly... What's a girl to do?

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  • Write all your feelings down on paper then burn it!

    Safely if course coffee can can be used outside if you have no access to fire pits.

    Physical venting canbe good too, kickboxing for example.

    Sorry you went through that - just remember what happened to you doesn't have to win you!

  • You've assumed an adult role before you were an adult. Sure, you're angry. The anger and resentment are completely justified. You can't change who your stepfather is or what he does. I was going to suggest talking to your step father. But he may not be totally receptive to the criticism. Or if you can talk to him in a supportive way then it could have results and together everyone can motivate to change the situation. Sometimes that can work. Other times, the person gets defensive Chances are he was given a very limited course in parenting and because no one says anything to the contrary, that's what's up. Sucks and it's sad. Your little brothers are very lucky to have you. But don't feel like you can't leave and lead your own life. Because you should be doing just that. The rage your feeling.. find constructive ways to relieve it.. exercise, talking, taking a trip etc.

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