I'm engaged to a great guy but one that
I'm engaged to a great guy but one that doesn't know how to take control. He lives to please me and It's getting old. I want a man to be strong, and able to run a family but he's weak minded and a people pleaser. He's cute, good in bed, I have a great and beautiful ring and he wants to get married as soon as possible but i don't think i do. Sometimes I think of cheating on him to just get that control and take charge attitude from another man, just physically I guess, maybe that would be satisfying. but i don't want to cheat, I hate drama and that's how my first marriage ended. Plus I love big d**** and he's just average but he can eat p**** like a champ. Is this a love thing or a sexual thing? I am 31, a nurse, so i'm not stupid but i need to either fix this or end this. He knows the kind of man he needs to be in order for me to marry him but he'sn ot changing at all. Maybe i need a different kind of man completely. He doesn't satisfy my intellect, but he satisfies me in other small ways like being at my beck and call. Am I selfish? Do I expect too much? There's only one man I truly ever loved and he's married to someone else so i just think maybe i should marry him cuz i can't have the one i want for real. Am I not thinking right? Is this hopeless. Can a marriage work if i don't truly love him as much as i could?