Contamplating the fight
I need other people's opinions...
This is not another s** confession, so if you are into that kind of stuff do not read further...
I had a fight with my father.
I am a 25 year old girl. I live at my parents' house. I am independent and I have my own floor, but its still their house. They are the only family I have in the city, everyone else is some place else, other city, other country.
I usually spend up to 1 hour daily at my parents' floor, we either eat together or have a coffee together. Its like a daily routine after work. Just to hang out for a while.
Last time I was at their place, my mom and I were joking and laughing a lot. Because we were so loud my father volumed up the TV. We did not notice it at that moment. It lasted for a few minutes. When we figured that the TV is too loud my mom said: why did you volumed it up so much?
He then snapped at us. I said there is no need to yell. He then snapped at me. He yelled. And cursed. The tone of his voice was terrifying.
It all happen out of the blue.
I said: okay so this is how its gonna be. And then I left.
Now we don't speak. I don't go to their place when he is home. I have not seen him for three days now. My mom communicates with him only briefly.
I don't intend to communicate with him any more unless he apologizes. But he will not apologize. HE HAS NEVER EVER IN HIS LIFE APOLOGIZED FOR ANYTHING, EVER. So he will most likely not apologize for this either.
I would like to smooth things over, but I can't. What is most likely to happen is that I start visiting them again, for coffee or hangouts, and to start some kind of communication.. But I just can't. I feel so hurt. And I want him to apologize to me for snapping at me for no reason. I feel like we are wasting time being angry at each other, when we were blessed with everything to fully enjoy this life. I am not sure what he thinks or how he feels about this.
Its so sad. All of this.