I have been working in the s** industry
I have been working in the s** industry for about 8 years (with a 3 year break in between). so eight years off and on (if you will).
I started out with stripping and got dangerously more and more in over my head as the years went on.
I am trying to get completly out now as i have a life that i am living that no longer has room for such work.
I am in graduate school and i am going to be a psychologist. I have a long term boyfriend whom I love and do not have an open relationship contract with him.
I am mourning the loss of my Self that i lost each time I let a p**** inside of me.
I turned my last trick last Monday and I hated myself so much at that time for doing such a deed that I didn't ahve the long time John use a condom. He's got a small p**** and doens't e******** due to prostate surgery but i'm still nervous not only of potential other STI's that i could have gotten but also for disrepsecting mySelf and my relationship.
I am sorry and I am asking for forgiveness.