Why do I keep doing this to myself?

So I've always had a rough family life so when so met my boyfriend my life turned around for the better. Me & him went on dates and hung out with our friends and everything was amazing. Now, 3 years later I have cheated, yes I know it's bad, but, I can't help it. I met this guy at my work, he was amazing. Sweet,funny,caring& smart. He wasn't the best looking like my boyfriend but so didn't care about that. Me & him started out as friends and then the conversations got more intense and deeper and it went further than a friendship. Needless to say me & my boyfriend broke up for a night after 3 years because of my cheating. Did I regret cheating? No. Because I felt as if my boyfriend was treating me badly and I had someone who didn't treat me bad and I felt as cared about me. Anyways, I am still with my boyfriend and dropped my "co-worker" , but now every time I see him or talk to him it's like a spark lights back up and I know e probably doesn't feel the same. Did so mention he is the one who even told my boyfriend I cheated because they were somewhat friends. Yeah I f***** up, but I still can't get him out of my head but I love my now fiancé so much . I just feel like I grew up too fast and in still trying to explore. I'm just really confused on what to do. Should I just keep my feeling for my "ex" inside? Or what....


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  • You are seriously way too immature and not remotely ready to be married. You should not get married right now. It will most certainly end in divorce. And whatever problems you have with your fiancee will not be solved with a marriage certificate. People change and so do relationships. So you have to learn how to grow both as people individually and together. If you don't have trust in a relationship, you really don't have anything. Not sure what "treating me badly" means to you. Is he hitting you? Then you should definitely leave him. Or is it you're not getting your way..but it's certainly not a reason to cheat? You're going to see a lot of attractive men in your lifetime who will flirt and make you feel wanted and needed. And your fiancee will most likely meet women as well who really don't care if he's married. But what's going to be the thing that prevents you from cheating? Because if you're going to continue to cheat, what's the point of staying in a relationship? You certainly don't value commitment. And if you don't value it, you can't expect anyone you're with to do the same. You're thinking about your ex, because you're not happy in your relationship or maybe you're just not happy with yourself. Maybe that's what you need to work on.

  • You need to decide. Each time the next hot thing comes past do you ditch the one you are with. Personally I value loyalty. I love my wife and yes hot young girls are around but my wife and I have chosen each other and we pledged ourselves to each other.

    You choose what you want and when you are old I hope you have fulfilment

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