Why do I keep doing this to myself?
So I've always had a rough family life so when so met my boyfriend my life turned around for the better. Me & him went on dates and hung out with our friends and everything was amazing. Now, 3 years later I have cheated, yes I know it's bad, but, I can't help it. I met this guy at my work, he was amazing. Sweet,funny,caring& smart. He wasn't the best looking like my boyfriend but so didn't care about that. Me & him started out as friends and then the conversations got more intense and deeper and it went further than a friendship. Needless to say me & my boyfriend broke up for a night after 3 years because of my cheating. Did I regret cheating? No. Because I felt as if my boyfriend was treating me badly and I had someone who didn't treat me bad and I felt as cared about me. Anyways, I am still with my boyfriend and dropped my "co-worker" , but now every time I see him or talk to him it's like a spark lights back up and I know e probably doesn't feel the same. Did so mention he is the one who even told my boyfriend I cheated because they were somewhat friends. Yeah I f***** up, but I still can't get him out of my head but I love my now fiancé so much . I just feel like I grew up too fast and in still trying to explore. I'm just really confused on what to do. Should I just keep my feeling for my "ex" inside? Or what....Mar 25, 2015