I'm alone and scared.
I've never been in a relationship. I've never even kissed a girl.
I never go looking for anything that's a one-off thing or something that lacks any significance. I want a proper, meaningful relationship. I see other young adults or late teens engaging in relationships quite happily, whether they last for weeks, months or years and it kills me inside. I always do the right thing, be the nice guy, but after all this time no one cares.
I've liked a few girls in the past, but none of them wanted to even give me a chance. It breaks my heart because all of these people, for however long or short a time I've known them, I've felt some sort of connection that seems to be a one-way street. I've tried so hard to find something positive to think but every night when I go to sleep knowing there is no one out there who cares for me is getting to me.
There's someone I met recently who seems different to anyone else I've liked. I look at her and something makes me think she's incredibly special. But I know that if I were to walk up and say that, or type it in a message on Facebook, it would be the last I ever see or hear from her. So I'm trying to talk to them, build up confidence to ask her out, but I feel the same thing happening as it always does: I'm losing them, I don't know what to do and I'm scared.
I know I'm only young, and people always say that it will happen, but I don't want to wait for years to be happy. I've spent my entire life so far waiting and it's destroying me.