As a woman in her mid-forties, I have no female friends, where I live. I can name one friend from my hometown, but that friendship is starting to wane. I am so embarrassed that I don't have any friends. I could make friends with men, gay and straight, but for some reason I can't find female friends with some of the same interests as me.
I am open minded, but very shy. I don't open up until I get to know a person. I have trust issues. I always seemed to have this problem since I was young.
I'm divorced with one adult child that doesn't talk to me. I have one sister, who I don't get along with even though I have tried. She just doesn't like me. The only friends I can say I really have are my elderly mother and boyfriend.
I live in an area with so much fun stuff to do, but I don't do anything because of not having friends. Don't get me wrong, I've tried, but I just get used and they move on once I get assertive and start saying "no."
I am lonely. I will die alone.