Repressed and obsessed
I want to be my boyfriend's pet and or s** slave. I want to call him sir, serve him, I want him to order me around and punish me when I'm naughty. We been together over four years. Sometimes he kind of slaps my ass, and gets slightly rough which I loove. I think he can be dominant but when I've asked if he prefers dominance or submission he doesn't know. I am certain I am submissive but I am not sure how to bring it up. I am so afraid of having a very awkward conversation where he just thinks I'm perverted or something. He does tend to cringe when he sees bdsm stuff on TV. The bottom line is that I love and respect him deeply and never want to lose him, but I crave embark on a fantastic sexual adventure that I am afraid he wont be into. I've never even sucked him off on my knees below him. ...only in bed while he lays down. I want him to pull my hair, make me eat on the floor, make me stay naked and share me however he pleases. I know we need to have a conversation, but I've just been walking around half naked and doing his laundry and s***, without mentioning my fantasies. Any advice for a gal whose craves a more interesting flavor than vanilla? Also, for any ladies who have successfully established a master slave relationship with their beloved, any tips on how to balance a career with such a time consuming commitment? I want and need to follow my dreams (both sexual and career).