I'm in love. I met this guy while I was looking for a friend with benefits. We had hancky panky and I could just feel the sparkles going on. I was honest with him as much as possible, so I told him how I felt, not really expecting a reply. We really have a good chemistry in and out the bed, and see each other at least twice a week, but I'm so scared to be rejected at the end. I did say that if he didn't wanted something serious he could tell me and we could just have s**, I don't really mind, but he gave me this hope and I can control myself anymore. I just want to be with him all the time. But knowing that I'm not his girlfriend I just can't bring myself to be pushy with my feelings again. I just can't handle it. I want to be with him, and share all the little things that happen in our daily life. I want to embrace and cuddle with him just because while we play games. I want to share my present with him so he can share his with me. I'm so scared. Please don't hate me, sweetheart. I swear I just wish you happiness...Even if it is not with me.