So unhappy and tired
I don't love you, I don't even like you. We got together only for s**, you got feelings and I did too, but in time, I realized you were a close-minded, bigoted, homophobic, dumbass alcoholic. I left, but then found out I was pregnant, and you knew I couldn't afford to do it on my own, so we tried to make it work. You drank, lied, broke promises, got mean mentally, verbally, emotionally and finally physically. You have gone to jail twice over the drinking and you being an a******....and the only reason I let you come back is because I need your income to help raise our daughter. I love her and only her, not YOU. I sit in a room with you and I'm a million miles away, the sight and sounds of you irritate me, I really do hate you. You may have "stopped" drinking because of probation, you may go to domestic violence and substance abuse classes, you may SAY you are better. But when you "work late" I can smell the alcohol on you, it may not be much, but I can smell it and you lie every damn time....and I am not a f****** idiot! I want to get away from you, but financially I am trapped. I don't even have the energy to cheat and find some kind of happiness on the side, all my time and energy goes into raising our child and surviving the stress of YOU!!!