I feel stupid. You have physically, verbally and mentally abused me. Now, I have all this anger and resentment build up towards you and its spilling over into my life. You still want me back. I keep going back and forth with you hoping things will change and it never does. I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know how to be calm around you. Now, since you don't like what I do, you tell me that you are going to work things out with your children's mother. I don't know why I feel Jealous. I hate this.