I'm in love with my best friend
I fell in love with my best friend, from the very first moment I saw him I was drawn to him. We have been best friends since then, 3 years ago, and he doesn't know that I would give anything for him.
We are far from each others "type" but I swear when he looks at me I can see it in his eye. I love my friend and would never want to risk our relationship for something that I might be misinterpreting. He doesn't know that every word he speaks sinks into my soul or that the first thought in my mind when I wake up is him.
We have fought on occasion, mostly about really stupid stuff but it has been pretty bad here and there.
Over the past year our relationship has begun to sour, we both want to be apart of the others life but we both have our own problems. I think we are redirecting our feelings for each other into anger and frustration about our current situations. Now when we are around each other we don't know what to say. Our conversations are about as deep as the conversation you would have with a stranger on the bus.
I miss him every minute of every day. I wish I could tell him that. I wish I could tell him that every time he has ever touched me has been the best moment of my life, My heart breaks every night without him and my days drag on.
I don't know what to do. Our friendship seems to be on the mend but what I really desire is something I doubt I will ever be able to express.