I am addicted to prescription painkillers
I cannot tell anyone I know. I realise I should get help for this, but I have created this whole world of lies based on my addiction and I am absolutely terrified that everything will crumble. I get a certain amount of pills each month and when I run out, I go through terrible withdrawals that affect my body, mind, and emotions. This, in turn, affects the people I love even though they don't know the real reason. The worst thing of all....I don't really want to stop. I know that logically, that is the thing I need to do, but I like the way they make me feel and I don't feel myself without them. I understand this is what all addicts say and I am no different, but it's more hard than you could ever imagine if you haven't been through addiction yourself. This secret is burning my insides...this is the hardest thing I have ever been through.