I am addicted to prescription painkillers

I cannot tell anyone I know. I realise I should get help for this, but I have created this whole world of lies based on my addiction and I am absolutely terrified that everything will crumble. I get a certain amount of pills each month and when I run out, I go through terrible withdrawals that affect my body, mind, and emotions. This, in turn, affects the people I love even though they don't know the real reason. The worst thing of all....I don't really want to stop. I know that logically, that is the thing I need to do, but I like the way they make me feel and I don't feel myself without them. I understand this is what all addicts say and I am no different, but it's more hard than you could ever imagine if you haven't been through addiction yourself. This secret is burning my insides...this is the hardest thing I have ever been through.

Jul 8, 2010

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  • I have dealt with addiction in my family. It hurts the worst knowing that you cannot do anything to help the person until they are ready to help themselves. You are right though, if you do not want to quit, you will not be able to.

  • I have used every thing on the planet.the worst was crack cocane.after 7 years in state prision,aa,na meetings and the like I finally realized one thing.if you dont want to quit nothing will work.
    I have been clean now for longer then i can rember with out all the "help" because I wanted to. I realized there was somthing more.

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