8 years and still a one-sided love.
I've known a man, for a decade now, met online and finally got to meet him just a month ago. We f*****, we kissed, he admitted he had feelings for me, but when we both separated that ended. Neither of us regret it, but he takes back what he said, and admits he doesn't have feelings for me. He knows how I've felt, and despite us both having on and off relationships with other people, he knows that I have always had strong feelings for him.
Now, I just don't know what to feel. I feel like trash. I've told him how confused I feel. He's just not an open person who likes to talk about his own feelings.
So, here I am, isolating myself from any and everyone, wallowing in my misery and heartbreak, trying to figure out my next move. I feel like constantly throwing up. I've poured all of my being out to this man. I don't feel used, I just feel... alone.