I don't see a point anymore
This past week I've really been losing hope. I've never felt so defeated before in my life. I need help but I don't know where or how to get it. I don't have the money or transportation for it. The people around me can't handle it. My family thinks I'm being too sensitive. MY brother thinks I'm a joke. I've isolated myself from my friends and I don't even trust them enough to tell them how low I am. My boyfriend abandoned me after I told him and now that he's back, I don't know if I can forgive him for it. I don't see a point in trying to be happy anymore, in even being here. I feel so lonely and sad, and I barely have any energy. I just have a sinking feeling in my chest I am trying to get rid of because it's pushing everyone away but I can't pretend anymore.
I just want to be happy. I'm tired of everyone lecturing me, how about comforting me for a change?