Finding the strength
To break up with him.
It's hard, because he really is such a good man. He does his absolute best. I love him... but I feel like a toxin to him. He's too busy to deal with my depression and insecurities. We have different "ideals" where I get extremely annoyed when he doesn't do what he says as he does it (which is all the time) and he gets upset because "something came up" and this is a part of him I don't know if I'll ever be able to accept, which isn't fair to him.
I want so badly to free him from this, it feels like he's only with me out of an obligation or maybe he just likes being in a relationship. But I really do want the best for him.
I just can't do it though. I don't want to, but I feel like it's the right thing to do for him.