I'm freaking out. I don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to about it because no one close to me even knew about it, we had to keep it a secret because of the age difference. (19 and 30) but I don't know what to do. He was the only person I had in my life that knew everything about me and accepted it. The first person I was ever intimate with, emotionally and physically. I feel abandoned and used. I would have never exposed myself like that if I'd thought it would end this way. I really saw myself with him for the long run.