I never told anyone I was raped when I was 15. I felt like it was my fault for being somewhere I shouldnt have been. I started cutting afterwards. The pain was the only thing that made me feel anything. it was two years ago today. The inside of my thighs are scared from all the cutting. My mom is taking me to the gynecologist next week because she thinks I have an infection. I don't know what I'm going to tell them if they get on table and look at me.