What happened in the basement stays in the basement
I'm a grown man now but when I was very young a male relative took me into the basement several times a month and did things to me I can never and will never repeat to anyone ever. That person is in jail now thankfully he got caught doing the same thing to another kid and other crimes. So it's not like I have a duty to stop him from doing it to others by telling the world what he did to me decades ago. No one can ever know. I will be sure of it. I know it happens to others and I'd give just about anything to prevent it but its always going to happen. People may think I'm a coward for not telling what he did but like I said he is in prison for the rest of his life. I could have confessed but I doubt anyone would believe me. My family didn't protect me and took his side. They probably suspected anyway but since nobody ever did anything to protect me ** them all.
It's your life, you don't have to do anything you don't want to in this situation. If you want, give that lil boy inside you an innocent loving hug and tell him he has nothing to be ashamed of, he did absolutely nothing wrong.
My mom used to dress me up. Short tight shorts. And look the other way when my father called me to sit on his lap. Then he would run his hands up and down my legs.
Sometimes best to leave things in the past.