Where is God???
I am so sick and tired of the same ole same ole God gives everything that we need. Well with all do respect I think that, that is a bunch of bull. I am so tired of hearing the same ole line of how bad life is and how to fight but honestly I have been fighting for a very long time and I cannot even get a single blessing. I started off with two degrees, a great job, and a nice car. I spent most of the funds that I made for the poor. Many children who had nothing got something when they came to me. Now it seems like over night I lost everything. I have always been a great believer in God. I have spent countless hours helping people to come to Christ but now I have no car to take kids to church anymore. I had to quit my job because of my illness, and my dreams and future were lost in a matter of minutes. I have been cheated, and cheated, and cheated. I am sick and tired of being on this battlefield. I pray and I pray but I hear nothing from God. However, here comes Satan. OH MAN!!! He makes things sound so damn tempting. He tells me things that my mind wants to here. He offers me things that I have been praying for such a long time. I really dont know what to do. I have thougtht to do bad things in life and use my education to benefit the streets. That way I will have some since of comfort that I am doing something. It seems like everytime I do wrong or encourage my young people to do wrong things get so much better. I feel like I was simply created to amuze God. I am his torturer. I honestly thinks that he loves to see me suffer. I have been through some tough s*** for the past ten years, and the only thing my family can tell me is Wait on the Lord. S**** That!!! I am tired of suffering in pain. Noone listens to me and I am quite honestly sick of it.