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Where is God???
I am so sick and tired of the same ole same ole God gives everything that we need. Well with all do respect I think that, that is a bunch of bull. I am so tired of hearing the same ole line of how bad life is and how to fight but honestly I have been fighting for a very long time and I cannot even get a single blessing. I started off with two degrees, a great job, and a nice car. I spent most of the funds that I made for the poor. Many children who had nothing got something when they came to me. Now it seems like over night I lost everything. I have always been a great believer in God. I have spent countless hours helping people to come to Christ but now I have no car to take kids to church anymore. I had to quit my job because of my illness, and my dreams and future were lost in a matter of minutes. I have been cheated, and cheated, and cheated. I am sick and tired of being on this battlefield. I pray and I pray but I hear nothing from God. However, here comes Satan. OH MAN!!! He makes things sound so ** tempting. He tells me things that my mind wants to here. He offers me things that I have been praying for such a long time. I really dont know what to do. I have thougtht to do bad things in life and use my education to benefit the streets. That way I will have some since of comfort that I am doing something. It seems like everytime I do wrong or encourage my young people to do wrong things get so much better. I feel like I was simply created to amuze God. I am his torturer. I honestly thinks that he loves to see me suffer. I have been through some tough ** for the past ten years, and the only thing my family can tell me is Wait on the Lord. ** That!!! I am tired of suffering in pain. Noone listens to me and I am quite honestly sick of it.
you need help. god is good. life isn't meant to be all wine and roses.
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