This is terrifying.
This could ruin my life. I am 18, I am engaged to a 22 year old soldier. I don’t know if I really want to marry him. He is my first love. We’ve been together for 2 years. I know that I love him, and always will, but I don’t know if it is enough to marry him. Shouldn’t I know that he is the one? He asked me to marry him over the phone, and to marry him when he comes home for Christmas. That is too fast. I still said I would love to. My boss is 34 years old. I’ve been cheating on my fiancée, who’s in the army, for two weeks, with my boss who is 16 years older than me. We haven’t had s** though. I don’t even like my boss. I actually hate him. I think he’s a creep, a moron and a looser. He thinks very highly of himself, and I hate him. I hate myself. I love this man, and I am cheating on him and I don’t know why. When did I become a terrible person? This isn’t me. What am I doing? I hate myself.