This is terrifying.

This could ruin my life. I am 18, I am engaged to a 22 year old soldier. I don’t know if I really want to marry him. He is my first love. We’ve been together for 2 years. I know that I love him, and always will, but I don’t know if it is enough to marry him. Shouldn’t I know that he is the one? He asked me to marry him over the phone, and to marry him when he comes home for Christmas. That is too fast. I still said I would love to. My boss is 34 years old. I’ve been cheating on my fiancée, who’s in the army, for two weeks, with my boss who is 16 years older than me. We haven’t had s** though. I don’t even like my boss. I actually hate him. I think he’s a creep, a moron and a looser. He thinks very highly of himself, and I hate him. I hate myself. I love this man, and I am cheating on him and I don’t know why. When did I become a terrible person? This isn’t me. What am I doing? I hate myself.

Jul 8, 2010

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  • okay, you're not necessarily a bad person...
    I think you're cheating with someone you really don't like because he's available and you want some way out of your current relationship since you're not ready to get married.
    that's not the right thing to do.
    you need to tell your fiance that you are not ready to get married.

  • first of all, whoever proposes over the phone is never sincere nor polite, and i don't care if he is overseas fighting a war or not. second, the mere fact that you are confessing and questioning and cheating on this guy makes it seem like you don't want to marry him at all. don't do it if it doesn't feel right because you WILL regret it. there are other people out there that you will feel right about marrying. it's a big step!

  • sounds like you need to find your self and have a bit of fun b4 settling down love! dont marry him your allways think what if! i loved my ex bt we broke up just cause we were to young and hadnt lived our own lives!

  • Why the h*** are you cheating with someone you don't even like? This makes no sense! What a horrible thing to do. . .you can give me your soon-to-be-ex's e-mail, I can cheer him up. . .obviously some women don't know how to treat a good man!

  • you'll hurt him more if you marry him and resent it the rest of your life than if you break it off now. you need time to grow up

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